Thursday, March 13, 2008

change

change is good, no? it's just painful as we go through it...or more accurately extremely painful as we anticipate it. new home, new jobs, new volunteering, new office, new building, new crafts, new coworkers, new boss...all in the space of two weeks. however, being in the middle of those two weeks, it strikes me that the actual change (even if there is "fall out" and "adjustment" to it still occurring) is the worst part. and it seemed like it was going to be even worse than it ended up before it happened. so i'm in that anticipation phase right now...for the new job.

i'm mostly worried about taking over an existing team - one that already knows the job (where i'm new). what do i do? say? how do i come in and be the best leader i can, even while i'm learning? listen. listen. listen. remember to be a person and empathize. have faith. be positive. and breathe.

that's all i can think of.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Monday, on 1 hour less sleep!

It's not so bad, but I'm tired! I know I shouldn't complain.

That said, it was a full weekend - packing, moving, unpacking...and more unpacking...and starting boxes and bags of things to give away. (I'm looking for good ideas of where the items should go. Ideally, they pick up. Most important, it has to be a great cause with little overhead so that nearly all of the benefit goes to the people in need!)

Speaking of donations, I just committed to planning a fund raising activity this summer for a great cause. It's called Scrapping 4 Inclusion, which is a specific, scrapbooking-focused fund raising group for the Bubel/Aiken Foundation, which "serves to bridge the gap that exists between young people with special needs and the world around them. We support communities with inclusive programs and together create awareness of the possibilities that inclusion can bring." Great organization, wonderful people (at least the leader for Scrapping 4 Inclusion is wonderful! Check out her blog here.), etc. And it's well past time to do something bigger than write a small check to my favorite charities. I'm going to put in time - the most precious resource!

It's going to be great fun! One of my best friends, Mary, is going to help me plan the event, which will be a nighttime crop on July 3 (mark your calendars if you are in the Seattle area!). She'll be visiting from California, and she's graciously agreed to help raise money, run the event, and do a lot of calling, emailing, and mailing until she's here.

It's sort of overwhelming, especially because the first thirty places I looked into for space during the event were outrageously expensive and had very limiting rules for what "non-profit" means. (We will need to charge a crop fee to cover the expenses and will require each participant to raise a minimum donation to the foundation.) I made a call this morning that resurrected my hopes, though, so I'm back on-track! I don't think I've found the perfect solution yet, but I at least feel like I will be able to have a relatively small event that won't cost over $50/person!

I have this sneaking suspicion that this blog will become the tales of charitable event planning for the next few months. In the meantime, if anyone is actually reading this and has ideas, let me know!

Monday, March 3, 2008

new march resolution

i signed up for a weight loss/tone up/eat better challenge today. this was after stepping on the scale this morning and realizing that i'm again at my all-time high. (this weekend, i donated a size 2 skirt. i wore this skirt only 2 years ago! i realize i am nowhere near obese, but size 2!!? it looked like it was made for a doll. amazing. i hate getting old!)

also, one of my best friends invited me to join her in the 2008 self challenge. it's not completely intuitive, but so far what i know is that i want to look like the women on the site in a bathing suit again. i entered in what i ate for breakfast this morning. not so bad so far. it's likely that just having to enter this all in through the annoying website will make me eat less.

but it's making me think of all of the "easier" ways i could lose weight. i know that i would never do any of these things, but it truly has gotten ridiculous out there. take alli for example. just read the reviews on this product! while really, really funny, they also indicate that it's possible that we have all gotten so lazy and impatient that we are willing to risk needing a new pair of pants like we used to when we were 2 years old. zoinks!

i guess it just comes down to getting myself to the gym. i don't know what it is. i used to work out. i even sort of liked it. now, the thought fills me with dread. and it's not because i don't want to be seen there or i think i'm hideous or something. i just don't want to go. it's a pain. i'm tired. i'm hungry.

i also know that i'm in such a better situation than so many people, because i have the choice. i'm healthy, and i could take control and make a change. it's perhaps also partially this fact that keeps me from doing so. maybe i need to start watching oprah or something. but i'm tired. and hungry.

at least i didn't wait until the next february 29 to blog again.